The Love of a Merciful Christian Mother

Online response from anonymous mother:

"When my son starting using marijuana at 16 and then subsequently got arrested by the time he was 18. I did a lot of finger pointing and judging and said and did things I'm not proud of out of fear, worry, shame, anger. I didn't handle it well, I didn't handle it as Jesus would have. My son did not see Jesus in me. It took a secular psychologist to open my eyes to my own issues and to acknowledge that in order for this situation to heal, I needed to heal. I had wounds that I unknowingly bled on to my children. Even with years of trying to grow in my faith, to be a Christian example to my kids, to raise them with prayer, scripture, all kinds of faith related activities, I had the courage to realize that all of this meant nothing if my kids did not see the love of Jesus Christ within my heart, that they did not see the love of a merciful Christian mother. It was painful to realize the mistakes, but, by the grace of God, He gave me the courage to recognize that I needed Him more than I ever imagined and that I needed to trust His son more than ever. I had to deeply examine my own heart and who it belonged to. It's been 4 years, it's been quite a journey, and, this journey, in reality was not about my son, it was about me. That revelation is healing my wounds, filling my heart holes with God's love, and now, my kids see a different person. My son has progressed, our relationship is better as I witness to how God works in my life not only by what I say, but how I act in response to Him. I'm able to see his hurting soul through the eyes of Jesus. As Jesus did when everyone wanted to condemn the adulterer, He made me aware of my own sin in order to have compassion for other sinners."